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Looking through some old photos and realizing how many people have walked out of my life. Those were the people who swore on their life they'd stay no matter what, but with a little hassle, they gave up and left. nonetheless, I have them who stayed. for years. those who saw me mature, those who has seen two sides of me, those who knew my dark secrets that I dare not tell now. It's really saddening to think that people are bound to grow apart. You may think you can keep your bunch of friends with you forever, but let's face the truth, people aren't that nice. Why would they stay when they can have someone better? Why would they stay if you won't benefit them? Some may stay but never expect things to remain the same. throughout the years, you may stay the same but people and things will change. they might argue otherwise - they might say that you've changed and things aren't working out. all you can do to make it all seem better that what is actually is, is

Come to think of it, people who constantly complain and never show an ounce of gratitude towards what they have are simply void of knowledge. Honestly, the more you know about what's happening in the world, the less you'll feel incomplete and the more grateful you become. Read, learn, seek for more and your life will never be not worth living for.

When I found out about the shooting that happened in Sandy Hook elementary school, I was shocked, appalled and revolted. People are getting more twisted by day. Where has consideration and sensibility gone? Let's make it even simpler - where was your heart and brain? For drama, I had to do some research on high school shootings in america and the amount of information I obtained from my research is unbelievable. I'm not going to explain to you these shooting rampages however if you are keen to know about it, try googling some of these: Columbine crisis 1999, Virginia Tech or just google high school shootings in america. Nonetheless, be prepared to lose faith in humanity.  The main message I'm trying to convey here is directed towards teenagers my age. Look, before you have the chance to think "This is my right, I can tweet or say what ever I want" "Kau siapa nak suruh aku buat benda" all the stuff along those lines, please just take into consider

Love yourself. Love every aspect of you. Love it with a passion. Take pride of what and who you are. Love every single cell of your body. Love your flaws and laugh at how the flaws make you the way you are. Love your difference. Love your weirdness. Love your insanity. Love your clumsiness and mistakes. Always love everything about you even when no one else will. At the end of the day, loving yourself will only result in you being the happiest person on earth. Don't rely on other people for that love and care, don't wait for things to happen, love yourself and go through this life with your head up, heart full.

Look, I'm a teenager just like you. I have friends who are teenagers just like you. I go through the same school bullcrap just like you. My parents have generally the same outlook on me just like yours. I read, watch, listen to the things that you do. But why do you try so hard to go out of your direction and go through hassles to only end up with regrets and embarrassments? People are going around with their 'YOLO', 'So mainstream' perceptions that you just freaking lose every ounce of fun you can make of it. Why do some people have to push something so simple to an extreme limit just so you can go by the rule 'yolo'? Isn't yolo supposed to be about doing what you want and what makes you happy? If that's why you're doing what you're doing then I'm sorry - I just don't see it. It seems like people are forcing themselves to look cool and go by 'yolo' so can they can go along well with the society. It seems like people are oka

We often underestimate the power of words and the impact it has on things. Most people stick by the saying, 'action speaks louder than words'. That's absolutely accurate but it doesn't mean that words are worthless. If you look around you, you'll notice that not only is everyone using language, intelligence, intuition and sympathy to communicate and share the energy that they have, but, most actions are triggered by words.  These past few days I felt hopeless. Trying hard previously apparently wasn't good enough. Even though I think I gave my best so far, it wasn't good enough. When I said what was on my mind to my mom, she raged. "Disappointed" was what she felt. I was shocked. I didn't expect her to lash out like that. Usually in movies, these kind of situation will result in the mother giving the daughter a sweet long ass pep talk; well that's bullshit. You see, my mom has high hopes on me. Out of all her children, she'd expect