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I've felt this way before... I'm just bored and I just wanted to share the dreadful feeling I've been through once.  I felt like I had no one to rely on, I see everyone as a faker. Everyone just so busy caring about their social scenery that they put aside the truth. They put aside about caring about what other people felt. I felt like I had no true friends. The only way to turn is to God. And I was ashamed to turn to Him, for I was not a good slave to Him. I felt like I was rejected by everyone. I felt lonely. I felt sad. I was angry. I wanted the days to end quickly and I would be unhappy when the sun rises, and it's time for me to grab another day ahead. I always wanted to give it a go, but I was too scared of people's thought of me. I was too scared to let it out and be myself. I let other people controll me and I felt like myself has rejected me, myself. All I wanted to do was to curl up in my bed and just to be left alone. Let me rest on my bed that's co...

Hi everyone. How's everybody doing? Good? Splendid. I'm doing.. Okay myself, I guess. Oh yes, firstly, I'm sorry for not updating my blog. I've been really busy and extremely exhausted and tired this past couple of weeks. As I mentioned in my previous post, I'm currently fasting as this is Ramadhan. Ramadhan has been beautiful for me. Beautiful. Enough said. For the first time in such a long time, I'm actually sad that Ramadhan's ending. Why....? ... Haha, I don't know. I just am. Then, of course, SCHOOL. I like school. Like? Love probably. But waking up early in the morning sucks balls. I'm still having a hard time waking up early. And sleeping early >.< Hahaha, I've really got to change my routine. Besides that, schooling in Patana is extremely a big change for me. BIG BIG BIG CHANGES. Everything is a new thing for me. Friends, transportation, teachers, subjects, canteen, toilets, environment, uniform, language, way of learning, way o...

Assalamualaikum guys! As we all know, tomorrow is PUASA. Hoyeah! I've been waiting for this for quite a long time. And I'm pretty excited about this year's fasting month, since my whole environment change. Country, House, Maid, time, well pretty much everything. I'm not even going through fasting season with my whole family and friends. It's sad, and I bet it's gonna be hard. But nothing's easy in this life, ey? Just gotta strive for the best, keep calm and keep praying. InsyaAllah, this year's fasting will be a good experience. Suddenly I feel so excited. And I've set my goals already, and I even planned my daily routine already. I've got an ample of time on my hands, and when's the better time to use it wisely? So everybody, Ramadhan is just once a year, what's so much of giving up on cursing? Giving up on food and water for sometime? You have 11 months to enjoy Allah's nikmat, satu bulan ditarik, apa lah sangat (: Whatever it is, d...

Greetings people. These past few days, I've did a lot of day dreaming. Hey, I am a part time dreamer. One of the most frequent things that I day dream of is about the places I dream to go. First and for all, Australia! (y) From what I've seen and heard, Australia is a very entertaining country. With the street performances, the Sydney Opera House and so much more! And the shopping? Oh don't even get me started! Australia is love. And second is WALLAH! Mekah :D Some people are fussy about the weather and the atmosphere at Mekah, but when you focus on the positive comments, it just overshadows the negative comments instantly 100%! The water and juices are the freshest among all! And only in Mekah, can some people find true passion, true love, true peace and calm and true sincerity. Only in Mekah can we feel the true presence of Allah as if he is right in front of our eyes. The purity some people feel when going to Mekah, aah, it's just indescribable. Only in Mekah can...

QUICK SHORT POST! I'd just like to say I love foods. No, I really really love it. Poor people, rich people, moderate people - We are all looking for the same thing everyday, FOOD. When I'm depressed, sad, happy, mad, angry YOU NAME IT, food's the only promising thing that could make my frown turn upside now. x I love you food, marry me.

Why is it that life is just such a ... Film Maker? There's happiness, there's laughter, there's tears, there's pain, there's regrets and mistakes, there's worries and hate, there's passion and love, there's stupidity and insanity and, there's cherish and pure, there's fake and reality and there's just so many. Honestly, before I die, I'd LOVE for this scene to happen; I have a house near the beach. A beautiful, cozy house that's fill with laughter. I have three kids, a husband and a kitten. Everyday I wake up, I'll be greeted by a warm kiss and a 'Mommy... wake up' sound. And when I wake up, I'll go the balcony and feel the breezy wind coming from the beach, running through my hair. I'll breathe fresh air, and hear the peaceful sound of the ocean. The sound of wave and the birds singing. No smokes from cars, no horns, no parents screaming at their children, no nothing. Just a peaceful wake up scenery. On the wa...

Add caption This man :D HAPPY FATHERS DAY TO ALL THE DAD'S OUT THERE, ESPECIALLY MY DAD, MOHAMED SUHARDY B. MOHAMED GARIP.  I'm really sad that I can't celebrate Father's Day with my dad today since we're seperated by the sea. :( That's okay, 'Jauh di mata, dekat di hati' ;) So, obviously I'm going to blog about Father's Day. So, get some feel to this. Fathers has always been the strong, independent man to our eyes. For girls, there's a lot of prince in your life, but remember, your dad will always be your number one king! And for guys, no matter how many bro's you meet, your dad will always be your soul mate forever.  There's a lot of fun, sporting, rich and etc kinds of father out there, but no matter how perfect your dad is, MY DAD IS BETTER THAN THE BEST.  Love your dad with every second you have, never take things for granted. You'll have ex lovers in life, ex bestfriends, ex wife, ex husband, ex teacher o...