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Brings you down all the time. Always the reason why your day sucks and always ruins your good day. Everything about that someone annoys you and you always want that person dead. Gone, just poof away from your life. 15 years of living, I encountered that kind of person. Frankly saying, I just wish God didn't meet me with this person. When I'm around that person, I just wish I/she would disappear. But hey, this is life. It's not that easy to walk out on things, face it and deal with it. And that's what I did. You know what they say, 'two can play this game'. So, I played the game. I treated her based on how she treats me. Judge me? I'll be the best critic. Condemn me? I'll condemn you twice as more. And above all that, all the thinks you misjudge me, I'll just prove you wrong. Honestly, now I thank God for meeting me with this person. I'm such a better person now and I honestly thank that person. Somehow it makes me strive for the best and over all...

Whatsup, hi, assalamualaikum. Half term break's officially over, and I'm validly back in Bangkok. Life's not so good currently, but I've got to admit that my one week stay in Malaysia was awesome. Worth it. Release rindu, release nafsu makan. And most importantly, release tension.  That one week just passes by me like a wind passes by. So fast. Time flies, especially good times. Next time I'm going through a good time, I'm gonna make sure I hold on to it and take it in as much as I can. I know that I can't go through it ever can. That's life for you. You know what they say, 'enjoy your youth, you'll never be younger than you are at this very second' Senang cerita, enjoy your life lah peopla :) Growing up isn't so much fun, and 90% of it isn't what you expected it to be. Just saying! So I arrived safely in Bangkok yesterday around.. 8? Good flight, I can say. The food was okay, the service was good as usual. Saw Mommy hidi...

I'm in Malaysia but my mind is like in Bangkok. Sheesh. All I think is about the homeworks, the bitches, the problems, the expectations, the teachers, the assignments. These things just pop out of nowhere at late nights and early mornings and just ambushes you. It's not once, not twice, but many times. This is why I hate being a teenager, this is why I hate highschool. There's so many things to think about and so many people to please. Too much faking and too much trying. I get sick of it every single time I do it but it's kind of mandatory for a teenager to do those stuff, you know? Like it's meant to be like this at this stage. I'm glad I have my brother, sister, my maid and my friends to accompany me through out the day and occupy my thoughts rather than to think of all this unnecessary things. But well you know, when it's late night and you're alone and you have your thoughts all to yourself, start lah those feelings datang. Skip all this man. SK...

I'm not supposed to feel like a useless crap feeling nothing but insecure, sad. Heish. Sumpah tak tenang kot hati ni I hate this feeling. See the picture above, and that's how I feel. The problem doesn't seems obvious, but this stupid  feeling ambushes you and just gradually kills you. At times insecurities take over, my self-esteem breaks down, my heart just gives up, my head's not in one place, i just feel like dying but I know it's just 'one of those days' and things WILL get better and I will be happier cause I deserve too. Being a teenager sucks. It's all about appearance, expectations, pleasing people, drama, back stabbing, over thinking and so much more. I mean, you guys tahu lah kan what I mean? I'm sure only teens read my blog so you all know how suckish it is to be a teenager. Just please, can I skip highschool and move on with life?! Mommy always say, 'What doesn't kill you, will make you stronger.' But mommy, what if it...

Hey everyone. I feel fresh and good today. After two sleepless nights, I finally got some decent, proper and most important ENOUGH sleep. Slept like 12 and woke up at 11 camtu. Just finished branch and nowwatching Hell's Kitchen. Brilliant. Hahaha I'm so bored. Gonna meet up with cousins kut after this, but I don't know when. No one called, or whatsoever. Lol, biarlah. I'm lazy myself so I won't bother anyways. Gonna chill with my sister and my bibik and enjoy the internet. I miss you Internet! :) Hehehe. I really really need to find a fun website to visit. I swear Twitter, Facebook, Tumblr and Blogspot is less appealing now. Sorry guys :> I get bored easily so yeah, mind me. I'll probably shut down my blog in a month time, or slightly longer than that OR I'll just continue using this for the rest of my life... Or my highschool life. Bahaha, I'm full of 'If's and or's' So yeah.

Hey ssup hello everyone! Such a moody blog I have here! Ugh. Gonna take some time tomorrow editing my blog so it'll look brighter and funner. :) So guess what?! I met up today and yesterday with my friends and reminisced like old ladies. Everyone practically changed a little. Aryna is so pretty now! Athirah just got prettier -.-' Nasha just increased her sense of humor and mira grew taller. Yeah. Then met with Elias, Sofea and yeah the rest of them. Laughed like hell reminiscing with yeen and elias. I swear you both are the best! :') Whateves. I had so much fun with them! Sleepless nights, ay Teera? ;) Lol I'm gonna miss this. Can't believe that less than a week, half term break's over and back to freaking school. Boo me! Just a picture to draw your attention. Haha I'm waiting for more photos from teera. Where woman?! Where?! I'm so tired and I just need to recharge myself tonight. Sleeping early tonight so yeah! Hihihih, goodnight folks!

Hi, hello, ssup. Well I'm pretty sure that I'm getting lamer by day. Simply based on the reason that it's Friday, 11pm and I'm already sleepy. I mean, which fifteen year old does that? I do. Lol see? Bored to the cores of your sandwich, I was. Signed in my twitter and started to do what I do best. Bug people. It always saves me from boredom I swear. That's why I'll die without the internet. Food's my number one hero before Internet of course. Lol I'd explode without food. So yeah. I pretty much crapped my way into twitter and bug some people. Some 'TwitterFamous' didn't reply. Puiiii!I can find someone better than you! Ceh padahal dalam hati tengah hoping diaorg balas tu So in a nutshell, I'd just like to end this wide awake eyes of mine to sleep by posting a very boring post. *YAWWWWNNNSSSS* It's working :D Trying everything to deal this boredom and fall asleep. Yo people, wanna see something cool? Close your eyes for 10 seco...

Hi, hello, ssup. Before I jump to my point, do you guys think that this world is now completely utterly dangerous? Like you can't trust anyone now. Nothing is certain and every step has to be precautions. I'm sick of this. I'm sick of twitsted sick people being free mans now. I'm sick of the bad people getting away with stuff. I'm sick of watching people dying, suffering. At any point, 2.5 billion victims are being trafficked. Someone is being raped. Someone is being tortured and massacred. And to see that some snotty bitches complaining on Twitter about not having the privilege to go out with their friends, well that's just stupid and pathetic. Listen up. I was you guys. I was one of those who made a big deal when my parents didn't let me go out with my friends. Their argument was "If anything happens to you, like seriously, do you think your friends can actually help?" "If you get kidnapped and brought out of country, what can you do?...

Hey everyone! WOW it's been a very long time since I visit this deprived blog of mine. Sorry guys, but I've been extremely busy. Like very busy. Definitely too busy to update my blog xD Anyways, Chemistry test today and I feel good about it. I think I did well, InsyaAllah. And also my English presentation went superb too! :D Gotta a great score. So, all this skipping internet routines is paying off gradually I guess? Hahaha. Mhm oh yess, tomorrow the school's having swimming Gala which i will unfortunately be participating. I don't want to, but... Heih. Stupid saying, 'I HAVE TO' < :( Oh well whateves, on the flip side, no learning from period 1-6! Hoyeah! (Y) Just what I needed. Time off from the classroom and teachers -.-' And tadada, I'll be loving the end of tomorrow cause guess what it means? Half term breaks hooligans!  ♥  Can't wait to meet my friendssss ohmygoooodddddd <3 I think I'll cry when I see them. I miss them so so ...