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I've felt this way before... I'm just bored and I just wanted to share the dreadful feeling I've been through once.  I felt like I had no one to rely on, I see everyone as a faker. Everyone just so busy caring about their social scenery that they put aside the truth. They put aside about caring about what other people felt. I felt like I had no true friends. The only way to turn is to God. And I was ashamed to turn to Him, for I was not a good slave to Him. I felt like I was rejected by everyone. I felt lonely. I felt sad. I was angry. I wanted the days to end quickly and I would be unhappy when the sun rises, and it's time for me to grab another day ahead. I always wanted to give it a go, but I was too scared of people's thought of me. I was too scared to let it out and be myself. I let other people controll me and I felt like myself has rejected me, myself. All I wanted to do was to curl up in my bed and just to be left alone. Let me rest on my bed that's co

Hi everyone. How's everybody doing? Good? Splendid. I'm doing.. Okay myself, I guess. Oh yes, firstly, I'm sorry for not updating my blog. I've been really busy and extremely exhausted and tired this past couple of weeks. As I mentioned in my previous post, I'm currently fasting as this is Ramadhan. Ramadhan has been beautiful for me. Beautiful. Enough said. For the first time in such a long time, I'm actually sad that Ramadhan's ending. Why....? ... Haha, I don't know. I just am. Then, of course, SCHOOL. I like school. Like? Love probably. But waking up early in the morning sucks balls. I'm still having a hard time waking up early. And sleeping early >.< Hahaha, I've really got to change my routine. Besides that, schooling in Patana is extremely a big change for me. BIG BIG BIG CHANGES. Everything is a new thing for me. Friends, transportation, teachers, subjects, canteen, toilets, environment, uniform, language, way of learning, way o