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"She may laugh out loud, be outspoken, always playful and never serious. But she has feelings. She gets hurt when you insult her. Especially when you blurt out really mean comments. Just because she's really good at hiding the pain, doesn't mean you can forget about being considerate towards how people might feel. For all you know, the happiest girl is the girl who cries herself to sleep.. Releasing all the pain she kept inside"  Stop- Just stop. Everyone has feelings. Even the happiest. Even the joker. Stop- Just stop. Nothing's wrong with trying to be better, and excel. If you have nothing nice to say, then don't say anything. Stop- Just stop. Stop demanding, criticizing, asking. I'm human. Pain exists in me. Don't you ever forget that. My loudest laugh can never overcome my immense pain. Don't you ever forget that. I'll forever keep putting on a smile on my face, chin up. But this heart, this heart will always tremble and be encir

15 days has passed by yet the feeling hasn't hit me yet. I'm still overwhelmed and wrapped by the dullness of life. When will I actually get to feel that 2012 will be a good year for me? Seems like everyone's having a good year so far but as I said, I'm still encircled by discontent. I'm fretting about the future, clinging to the past, dreading with the present. Seems pathetic, doesn't it? Trust me, it's not pathetic as it actually looks like. I just.. want 2011 back. I know that's impossible and too much to ask for, but wishing and hoping is never something bad. The only thing that's getting me through the day honestly, is hopes and dreams. Merely hopes and dreams.  A slight glimpse of achievement doesn't enthrall me, when it used to be my long-term happiness. Something that's  actually a solid proof that I'm not completely a waste of time, that my life, isn't a waste of.. soul. I don't fancy heart to heart talks anymore,