And I wonder, how long will I be able to pile this up?

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"She may laugh out loud, be outspoken, always playful and never serious. But she has feelings. She gets hurt when you insult her. Especially when you blurt out really mean comments. Just because she's really good at hiding the pain, doesn't mean you can forget about being considerate towards how people might feel. For all you know, the happiest girl is the girl who cries herself to sleep.. Releasing all the pain she kept inside" 


Stop- Just stop. Everyone has feelings. Even the happiest. Even the joker.
Stop- Just stop. Nothing's wrong with trying to be better, and excel. If you have nothing nice to say, then don't say anything.
Stop- Just stop. Stop demanding, criticizing, asking.

I'm human. Pain exists in me.
Don't you ever forget that.
My loudest laugh can never overcome my immense pain.
Don't you ever forget that.
I'll forever keep putting on a smile on my face, chin up. But this heart, this heart will always tremble and be encircled by disappointment.
Don't you ever forget that.

I did let you get to me, and you really really got to me. I hope you're happy and I really hope one day you get a taste of your own medicine.
Maybe then you'll start treating others better.

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